Subject- Drew & Blogaversary
Date- July,2, 2009.
Time- 2:46 pm.
Watching- The Misfits
Feeling- Nothing.
Weight- w.e
Holla
First off, Yesterday was my one year Blogaversary!
*It's fun...like a party...in Stitsville...with conical hats...and Cody*
I know were Cody lives! lol I saw his house =P
And Second...
Drew
I've actually managed to warp my mind into thinking I like him, like I LIKE like him. He's a sleazy drug addicted man whore...
...That I have a crush on...
=S
Everytime he's online my heart starts racing, and it going out of control whenever we talk, I have dreams about him (Rated R =P *drools*) I wrote a frikken poem. I listen To Teardrops on My Guitar ALL THE TIME, I always imagen what I would do if he was near me, Thinking about him makes me untateraly happy, and I'm my facebook 24/7 waiting for him to come on (and hopefully talk to me) I read Wikihows ALL THE TIME and then get pissed when there not helpfull.
I'm going to attempt to brake down why I 'Like' him *Rolls eyes*
His eyes (Jesus Murray that boy has gorgeous eyes)
His Lips (Pouty and perfect)
His Body (All I can think about is that day he was hanging from the net and his jeans almost slipped enugh....=])
He's 18 (Older, hullo sexy)
He's a Bad Boy (Drinking, Drugs, Sex and Rock 'n' Roll)
He's just.....Drew I don't even know how to describe it =S Even know I'm thinking about him an smiling, my hearts racing FML
Love, Writer Girl.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Just sayin'
Subject- Just sayin'
Date- June, 28, 2009.
Time- 7:23 pm.
Watching- Nothing.
Feeling- Nothing.
Weight- w.e
I could really go for a cheese sandwich right now...Just sayin'
Love, Writer Girl.
Date- June, 28, 2009.
Time- 7:23 pm.
Watching- Nothing.
Feeling- Nothing.
Weight- w.e
I could really go for a cheese sandwich right now...Just sayin'
Love, Writer Girl.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Ashton
Subject- Ashton
Date- June, 22, 2009.
Time- 3:55pm.
Watching- Nothing.
Feeling- Nothing.
Weight- w.e.
Ashtons not a virgin
He's not a virgin
Not a virgin
He lost his virginity
He had sex
Ashton had sex
ASHTON MY Ashton had sex
Apparently he met this girl in Niagara and they went to her room and started kissing on the couch and then the bed and then...and then is was over.
And He's ashamed of himself and he cried when he told cam/me.
He's only 13
...ok hypocritical...
But still it's ASHTON!!!!
Cam just thought it was funny and he was jealous.
He doesn't get it!! It's ASHTON for god sakes!
What the hell, I'm not sure if I believe it but STILL!!?!?!?!?!?
:( *Confused*
Love, Writer Girl.
Date- June, 22, 2009.
Time- 3:55pm.
Watching- Nothing.
Feeling- Nothing.
Weight- w.e.
Ashtons not a virgin
He's not a virgin
Not a virgin
He lost his virginity
He had sex
Ashton had sex
ASHTON MY Ashton had sex
Apparently he met this girl in Niagara and they went to her room and started kissing on the couch and then the bed and then...and then is was over.
And He's ashamed of himself and he cried when he told cam/me.
He's only 13
...ok hypocritical...
But still it's ASHTON!!!!
Cam just thought it was funny and he was jealous.
He doesn't get it!! It's ASHTON for god sakes!
What the hell, I'm not sure if I believe it but STILL!!?!?!?!?!?
:( *Confused*
Love, Writer Girl.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Drew
Subject- Drew.
Date- June, 3, 2009.
Time- 8:59pm.
Watching- Nothing.
Feeling- Nothing.
Weight- w.e.
I was talking to Drew today, He told me that Cam didn't want me to do drugs (Apparently he didn't say that but w.e) So I was talking to him after, and he wanted to know if I was doing drugs (No) and he feels we should smoke a joint together (I agreed) He asked if I would take advantage of him (He wants me to)
It was very odd, I think I'm hanging out with Cam on Friday (Until 2) and I'm gonna try to hang out with Drew after that (I won't take advantage of him)
Should I? I don't know anymore I'm cold inside, always =S
Love, Writer Girl.
Date- June, 3, 2009.
Time- 8:59pm.
Watching- Nothing.
Feeling- Nothing.
Weight- w.e.
I was talking to Drew today, He told me that Cam didn't want me to do drugs (Apparently he didn't say that but w.e) So I was talking to him after, and he wanted to know if I was doing drugs (No) and he feels we should smoke a joint together (I agreed) He asked if I would take advantage of him (He wants me to)
It was very odd, I think I'm hanging out with Cam on Friday (Until 2) and I'm gonna try to hang out with Drew after that (I won't take advantage of him)
Should I? I don't know anymore I'm cold inside, always =S
Love, Writer Girl.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Umm.
Subject- Umm.
Date- June, 2, 2009.
Time- 10:42 am.
Watching- Nothing.
Feeling- Nothing.
Weight- w.e.
Why do you still read my blog?
I mean really.
But w.e.
Uh, Nothing interesting or new or w.e.
Love, Writer Girl.
Date- June, 2, 2009.
Time- 10:42 am.
Watching- Nothing.
Feeling- Nothing.
Weight- w.e.
Why do you still read my blog?
I mean really.
But w.e.
Uh, Nothing interesting or new or w.e.
Love, Writer Girl.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
One Week.
Subject- One week.
Date- May, 31, 2009
Time- 10:42 am
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Nothing
Weight- w.e.
It's been a week, I can't cry again. I decided to wear some pink, black and pink the pink kinda respects the whole "party" funeral idea. Idk.
I miss him, I didn't miss him when he was...alive but now that I'll never see him I miss him so much.
I...never mind.
Sorry.
Love, Writer Girl.
Date- May, 31, 2009
Time- 10:42 am
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Nothing
Weight- w.e.
It's been a week, I can't cry again. I decided to wear some pink, black and pink the pink kinda respects the whole "party" funeral idea. Idk.
I miss him, I didn't miss him when he was...alive but now that I'll never see him I miss him so much.
I...never mind.
Sorry.
Love, Writer Girl.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Fucked
Subject- Fucked
Date- May, 30, 2009
Time- 10:04 pm
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Nothing
Weight- w.e.
I was on the phone with C.T. before and I got upset and he asked me what I needed...I said Kevin, He hung up and isn't answering my calls...Neither is Kevin. FML.
I just spent the past hour bawling while listening to Crazier by Taylor Swift.
I don't know why I'm double posting for today. Sorry.
Love, Writer Girl.
Date- May, 30, 2009
Time- 10:04 pm
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Nothing
Weight- w.e.
I was on the phone with C.T. before and I got upset and he asked me what I needed...I said Kevin, He hung up and isn't answering my calls...Neither is Kevin. FML.
I just spent the past hour bawling while listening to Crazier by Taylor Swift.
I don't know why I'm double posting for today. Sorry.
Love, Writer Girl.
Oops
Subject- OopsDate- May, 30, 2009
Time- 12:09 pm
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Nothing
Weight- w.e.
Sorry for not writing yesterday, I was in the city all day.
I cried yesterday, for the first time in days, Made a complete blubbering fool of my self in fount of C.T., it made him happy that I "Trusted him" It pissed me off, I didn't mean to and now he's all proud of himself, He kept accidentally making suicide comments...And he didn't realize.
I'm supposed to do the memorial thing tomorrow, I still don't have the candles or the Pixie Stixs.
Moms great plan for making me stop feeling like shit is to pretend she doesn't know what or who I'm talking about when I mention it, Not that I'm mentioning it...at all.
My heart hurts.
Love, Writer Girl.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Big girls don't cry
Subject- Big girls don't cry.
Date- May, 28, 2009
Time- 10:38 am
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Cold and Tired
Weight- w.e.
I haven't slept in days, I still can't cry either btw. No one gets why I'm still Mourning.
Love, Writer Girl
Date- May, 28, 2009
Time- 10:38 am
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Cold and Tired
Weight- w.e.
I haven't slept in days, I still can't cry either btw. No one gets why I'm still Mourning.
Love, Writer Girl
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Sunday
Subject- Sunday
Date- May, 27, 2009
Time- 11:45 am
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Vacant
Weight-
Sunday will be a week, it was the day after his brothers birthday.
I'll do my memorial on Sunday.
Love, Writer Girl.
Date- May, 27, 2009
Time- 11:45 am
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Vacant
Weight-
Sunday will be a week, it was the day after his brothers birthday.
I'll do my memorial on Sunday.
Love, Writer Girl.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
In Mourning
Subject- In Mourning
Date- May, 26, 2009
Time- 11:27 am
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Mournful
Weight- Idc
I'm in mourning, Head to toe black, Mother thinks I'm over reacting.
Does being in Mourning mean I'm disrespecting his wishes? He wanted a celebration and I'm giving him the opposite of what he wanted, It feels right but maybe it isn't, I think I will do my memorial this weekend, I just need candles I was thinking maybe birthday candles oh and Pixie Stixs. I don't know if Brokeback Mountain is the right choice, but I'll think about it I wish I could remember the name of that god damn band...
I stopped crying, I actually don't think I can, I didn't sleep at all last night and it still doesn't seem real.
Red Bull and Pixie Stixs? Rockstar and Pixie Stixs and Lollipops?
I don't know what to do, I tried writing lists, and for the first time, It actually didn't help...
How, Well I know how
Why, Well we all know why
Who, Well that's a stupid question
What,Well Pete I guess
Where,Well his room I think
That didn't help at all.
No.
No.
Where the hell is that fucking ass hole, what fucking hole has he crawled under?
Love, Writer Girl.
Date- May, 26, 2009
Time- 11:27 am
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- Mournful
Weight- Idc
I'm in mourning, Head to toe black, Mother thinks I'm over reacting.
Does being in Mourning mean I'm disrespecting his wishes? He wanted a celebration and I'm giving him the opposite of what he wanted, It feels right but maybe it isn't, I think I will do my memorial this weekend, I just need candles I was thinking maybe birthday candles oh and Pixie Stixs. I don't know if Brokeback Mountain is the right choice, but I'll think about it I wish I could remember the name of that god damn band...
I stopped crying, I actually don't think I can, I didn't sleep at all last night and it still doesn't seem real.
Red Bull and Pixie Stixs? Rockstar and Pixie Stixs and Lollipops?
I don't know what to do, I tried writing lists, and for the first time, It actually didn't help...
How, Well I know how
Why, Well we all know why
Who, Well that's a stupid question
What,Well Pete I guess
Where,Well his room I think
That didn't help at all.
No.
No.
Where the hell is that fucking ass hole, what fucking hole has he crawled under?
Love, Writer Girl.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Subject- No
Date- May, 25, 2009
Time- 9:47pm
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- No...Confused, angry, upset....no
Weight- Idk
No...It' can't be true...it-it cant be, no, No I wont believe it. I refuse...it can't be true, he couldn't have
I can't stop crying, why can't I stop crying, It's not even crying anymore it's just gasping for air, why isn't there enough air? Why didn't he tell me, I saw him the other day I missed the funeral why didn't he god damn tell me, He knew he was supposed to tell me, why didn't either of them tell me anything before, I could have done something...I could have...
I missed the funeral, It was in Ohio, not like I could have gone anyway but I missed it, I think I'll have my own little memorial thingy, Get 16 Candles (actual candles, not the movie) get a shit load of Pixie stixs and burn the candles while watching Broke back Mountain, nvm I guess that's stupid, I don't know what to do, what do people do when this happens? I tried telling people, no one understood, How can he be gone? How did I not know? why didn't they tell me, He...he knew to trust me, but I guess I wasn't worth it, I'm mad at him, I wish I could say it out loud but I'm mad, I'm mad and I miss him more then I ever have.
There was no band, no movie, no hats, no colour coding, no rainbows and no outside, It was in a church, everyone wearing black and crying.
Why couldn't they have listened to what he wanted?
Sorry, I failed you I should have done better, I love you Peter (You know I'm mad when I call you peter) I'll always remember you, and miss you.
Love, Writer Girl (a.k.a...anything you wanted to call me)
Date- May, 25, 2009
Time- 9:47pm
Watching- Nothing
Feeling- No...Confused, angry, upset....no
Weight- Idk
No...It' can't be true...it-it cant be, no, No I wont believe it. I refuse...it can't be true, he couldn't have
I can't stop crying, why can't I stop crying, It's not even crying anymore it's just gasping for air, why isn't there enough air? Why didn't he tell me, I saw him the other day I missed the funeral why didn't he god damn tell me, He knew he was supposed to tell me, why didn't either of them tell me anything before, I could have done something...I could have...
I missed the funeral, It was in Ohio, not like I could have gone anyway but I missed it, I think I'll have my own little memorial thingy, Get 16 Candles (actual candles, not the movie) get a shit load of Pixie stixs and burn the candles while watching Broke back Mountain, nvm I guess that's stupid, I don't know what to do, what do people do when this happens? I tried telling people, no one understood, How can he be gone? How did I not know? why didn't they tell me, He...he knew to trust me, but I guess I wasn't worth it, I'm mad at him, I wish I could say it out loud but I'm mad, I'm mad and I miss him more then I ever have.
There was no band, no movie, no hats, no colour coding, no rainbows and no outside, It was in a church, everyone wearing black and crying.
Why couldn't they have listened to what he wanted?
Sorry, I failed you I should have done better, I love you Peter (You know I'm mad when I call you peter) I'll always remember you, and miss you.
Love, Writer Girl (a.k.a...anything you wanted to call me)
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Bonjour
Subject- Bonjour
Date- February,18,2009
Time- 1:08pm
Watching- Bridget Jones's Diary
Feeling- Headache-ed
Weight- 140 (What ze fu-kuk!)
Hello Dahlz,
I have a killer headache to end all headaches , Ugh Save me!
Nothing much new going on, ze evil motha thinks there's something wrong between C.T. and I, just because she was gone all day and he didn't call till 3 when he was done school, and he hasn't called yet today because, Well it's Wednesday, And on Wednesday he Snowboards...
...Every Wednesday...
...Since December...
Ugh She actually yelled at me because I tried to explain that, she told me I was denying it, apparently he's mad at me for going to the dance (In her opinion).
Blah Blah Blah, Moving on...
Speaking of The dance ,What the hell am I gonna wear!?!? (it is tomorrow after all).
Random rambling thought:
(Not that I'd ever tell her this, although technically she will read it when she gets home)
I think P.L. doesn't actually want me to go to the dance and she just asked to be nice and didn't actually expect or want me to say yes, And That I'm going to ruin the whole thing for her.
Oh yeah and I'm going to feel stupid because It'll be all of her friends and they'll all hate me.
Blah....
I'm Babysitting Claire on Saturday night if any hoo-ha in hooville cares =P
That's it for now lovers.
Love, Writer Girl
Date- February,18,2009
Time- 1:08pm
Watching- Bridget Jones's Diary
Feeling- Headache-ed
Weight- 140 (What ze fu-kuk!)
Hello Dahlz,
I have a killer headache to end all headaches , Ugh Save me!
Nothing much new going on, ze evil motha thinks there's something wrong between C.T. and I, just because she was gone all day and he didn't call till 3 when he was done school, and he hasn't called yet today because, Well it's Wednesday, And on Wednesday he Snowboards...
...Every Wednesday...
...Since December...
Ugh She actually yelled at me because I tried to explain that, she told me I was denying it, apparently he's mad at me for going to the dance (In her opinion).
Blah Blah Blah, Moving on...
Speaking of The dance ,What the hell am I gonna wear!?!? (it is tomorrow after all).
Random rambling thought:
(Not that I'd ever tell her this, although technically she will read it when she gets home)
I think P.L. doesn't actually want me to go to the dance and she just asked to be nice and didn't actually expect or want me to say yes, And That I'm going to ruin the whole thing for her.
Oh yeah and I'm going to feel stupid because It'll be all of her friends and they'll all hate me.
Blah....
I'm Babysitting Claire on Saturday night if any hoo-ha in hooville cares =P
That's it for now lovers.
Love, Writer Girl
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Efron
Subject- Efron
Date- February,17,2009
Time- 6:16pm
Watching (listening t00)- What not to wear
Feeling- PEACEyyyyyyyyy
Weight- 138 ish I think, it was this morning.
Hello Dahlinks!
I am so so sorry I abandoned you all! Happy Haloween! Merry Christmas! Happy New Year! Happy Valentines day!
Gah! I am sooo sorry, you Guys have missed out on SO much.
I'm got my G1, I'm 16, I went to Niagara with P.L., I've been dating C.T. for almost 3 months, I'm knitting again, I'm in the play, Etc. Etc. lol
Alrighty sorry to cut my Blogging short (took my like waaaay long time to type this, delete, backspace, enter, space blah blah blah!)
I'll be back tomorrow!
Ciao/ChowMein!
Love, Writer Girl.
Date- February,17,2009
Time- 6:16pm
Watching (listening t00)- What not to wear
Feeling- PEACEyyyyyyyyy
Weight- 138 ish I think, it was this morning.
Hello Dahlinks!
I am so so sorry I abandoned you all! Happy Haloween! Merry Christmas! Happy New Year! Happy Valentines day!
Gah! I am sooo sorry, you Guys have missed out on SO much.
I'm got my G1, I'm 16, I went to Niagara with P.L., I've been dating C.T. for almost 3 months, I'm knitting again, I'm in the play, Etc. Etc. lol
Alrighty sorry to cut my Blogging short (took my like waaaay long time to type this, delete, backspace, enter, space blah blah blah!)
I'll be back tomorrow!
Ciao/ChowMein!
Love, Writer Girl.
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